Thursday, January 27, 2011
"Confessions of an Eco-Sinner: Tracking Down the Sources of My Stuff" by Fred Pearce
I got this book from the library on a whim. It's one of those books you can't stop reading and yet, kinda wish you'd never picked up. In it Fred Pearce picks different things around his house, like green beans, computers and clothes and tracks where it came from and where it goes when he's done with it.
This book goes along with what I've been feeling recently, as well as the article that I posted previously.
It's a fascinating book and really made me think about how I do actually have an effect on the global economy. That what I do, effects lives of individuals that, while I may never see them, are just as important and have needs, wants and desires, just like me. In an economics class, D's teacher told him that each dollar he spends is a vote. While I thought that was a cool concept before, I understand it better now.
Fred follows the gold in his wedding band down miles below the earth's surface to the dangerous mines of South Africa. He follows his produce back to Kenya where farming is encouraging young people to stay on the land and use eco-friendly growing means. He follows his clothes from sweatshops in Bangladesh to the cotton fields that are destroying Uzbekistan and the Aral Sea. He follows his furniture back through China to where it was probably logged illegally and unethically in New Guinea. He follows the computer he donates to an organization that fixes using disabled workers and donates them to schools across Kenya. he follows his recycling to China, where it is used to make new containers that are shipped back to where the recyclables came from originally.
The point (and the problem) with this book, is that it makes me realize that I can't follow all my goods back and know that they're grown, created, or traded fairly. It also made me realize, that as much as I might want to, there is no way that I can truely become completely self-sufficent. It's also made me much more aware of the waste products I'm producing and conscious of how much I'm recycling and how.
It's given me a much stronger desire to want to be as self-sufficent as possible. To know the people who are producing my food. To compost more, to waste less and hopefully to make a more possitive influence on the world around me, rather than an unconscious, thoughless negative impact. To realize that each dollar I spend is a vote. I can either help or I can hurt with it. But I'd better know which I'm doing.
But also remember a couple quotes from the book. "As Ghandi put it: ' There is enough for everyone's need, but not for everyone's greed.'" And, "... We should not make the perfect the enemy of the good."
Monday, January 24, 2011
"The Oil We Eat"
I will blog about WHY I posted this later, but I don't want to loose it now. I am posting the link here but just in case it becomes a bad link, I wanted to have the information...
This is from Harper's Magazine:
The oil we eat:
Following the food chain back to Iraq
By Richard Manning
The secret of great wealth with no obvious source is some forgotten crime, forgotten because it was done neatly.—Balzac
The journalist's rule says: follow the money. This rule, however, is not really axiomatic but derivative, in that money, as even our vice president will tell you, is really a way of tracking energy. We'll follow the energy.
We learn as children that there is no free lunch, that you don't get something from nothing, that what goes up must come down, and so on. The scientific version of these verities is only slightly more complex. As James Prescott Joule discovered in the nineteenth century, there is only so much energy. You can change it from motion to heat, from heat to light, but there will never be more of it and there will never be less of it. The conservation of energy is not an option, it is a fact. This is the first law of thermodynamics.
Special as we humans are, we get no exemptions from the rules. All animals eat plants or eat animals that eat plants. This is the food chain, and pulling it is the unique ability of plants to turn sunlight into stored energy in the form of carbohydrates, the basic fuel of all animals. Solar-powered photosynthesis is the only way to make this fuel. There is no alternative to plant energy, just as there is no alternative to oxygen. The results of taking away our plant energy may not be as sudden as cutting off oxygen, but they are as sure.
Scientists have a name for the total amount of plant mass created by Earth in a given year, the total budget for life. They call it the planet's “primary productivity.” There have been two efforts to figure out how that productivity is spent, one by a group at Stanford University, the other an independent accounting by the biologist Stuart Pimm. Both conclude that we humans, a single species among millions, consume about 40 percent of Earth's primary productivity, 40 percent of all there is. This simple number may explain why the current extinction rate is 1,000 times that which existed before human domination of the planet. We 6 billion have simply stolen the food, the rich among us a lot more than others.
Energy cannot be created or canceled, but it can be concentrated. This is the larger and profoundly explanatory context of a national-security memo George Kennan wrote in 1948 as the head of a State Department planning committee, ostensibly about Asian policy but really about how the United States was to deal with its newfound role as the dominant force on Earth. “We have about 50 percent of the world's wealth but only 6.3 percent of its population,” Kennan wrote. “In this situation, we cannot fail to be the object of envy and resentment. Our real task in the coming period is to devise a pattern of relationships which will permit us to maintain this position of disparity without positive detriment to our national security. To do so, we will have to dispense with all sentimentality and day-dreaming; and our attention will have to be concentrated everywhere on our immediate national objectives. We need not deceive ourselves that we can afford today the luxury of altruism and world-benefaction.”“The day is not far off,” Kennan concluded, “when we are going to have to deal in straight power concepts.”
If you follow the energy, eventually you will end up in a field somewhere. Humans engage in a dizzying array of artifice and industry. Nonetheless, more than two thirds of humanity's cut of primary productivity results from agriculture, two thirds of which in turn consists of three plants: rice, wheat, and corn. In the 10,000 years since humans domesticated these grains, their status has remained undiminished, most likely because they are able to store solar energy in uniquely dense, transportable bundles of carbohydrates. They are to the plant world what a barrel of refined oil is to the hydrocarbon world. Indeed, aside from hydrocarbons they are the most concentrated form of true wealth—sun energy—to be found on the planet.
As Kennan recognized, however, the maintenance of such a concentration of wealth often requires violent action. Agriculture is a recent human experiment. For most of human history, we lived by gathering or killing a broad variety of nature's offerings. Why humans might have traded this approach for the complexities of agriculture is an interesting and long-debated question, especially because the skeletal evidence clearly indicates that early farmers were more poorly nourished, more disease-ridden and deformed, than their hunter-gatherer contemporaries. Farming did not improve most lives. The evidence that best points to the answer, I think, lies in the difference between early agricultural villages and their pre-agricultural counterparts—the presence not just of grain but of granaries and, more tellingly, of just a few houses significantly larger and more ornate than all the others attached to those granaries. Agriculture was not so much about food as it was about the accumulation of wealth. It benefited some humans, and those people have been in charge ever since.
Domestication was also a radical change in the distribution of wealth within the plant world. Plants can spend their solar income in several ways. The dominant and prudent strategy is to allocate most of it to building roots, stem, bark—a conservative portfolio of investments that allows the plant to better gather energy and survive the downturn years. Further, by living in diverse stands (a given chunk of native prairie contains maybe 200 species of plants), these perennials provide services for one another, such as retaining water, protecting one another from wind, and fixing free nitrogen from the air to use as fertilizer. Diversity allows a system to “sponsor its own fertility,” to use visionary agronomist Wes Jackson's phrase. This is the plant world's norm.
There is a very narrow group of annuals, however, that grow in patches of a single species and store almost all of their income as seed, a tight bundle of carbohydrates easily exploited by seed eaters such as ourselves. Under normal circumstances, this eggs-in-one-basket strategy is a dumb idea for a plant. But not during catastrophes such as floods, fires, and volcanic eruptions. Such catastrophes strip established plant communities and create opportunities for wind-scattered entrepreneurial seed bearers. It is no accident that no matter where agriculture sprouted on the globe, it always happened near rivers. You might assume, as many have, that this is because the plants needed the water or nutrients. Mostly this is not true. They needed the power of flooding, which scoured landscapes and stripped out competitors. Nor is it an accident, I think, that agriculture arose independently and simultaneously around the globe just as the last ice age ended, a time of enormous upheaval when glacial melt let loose sea-size lakes to create tidal waves of erosion. It was a time of catastrophe.
Corn, rice, and wheat are especially adapted to catastrophe. It is their niche. In the natural scheme of things, a catastrophe would create a blank slate, bare soil, that was good for them. Then, under normal circumstances, succession would quickly close that niche. The annuals would colonize. Their roots would stabilize the soil, accumulate organic matter, provide cover. Eventually the catastrophic niche would close. Farming is the process of ripping that niche open again and again. It is an annual artificial catastrophe, and it requires the equivalent of three or four tons of TNT per acre for a modern American farm. Iowa's fields require the energy of 4,000 Nagasaki bombs every year.
Iowa is almost all fields now. Little prairie remains, and if you can find what Iowans call a “postage stamp” remnant of some, it most likely will abut a cornfield. This allows an observation. Walk from the prairie to the field, and you probably will step down about six feet, as if the land had been stolen from beneath you. Settlers' accounts of the prairie conquest mention a sound, a series of pops, like pistol shots, the sound of stout grass roots breaking before a moldboard plow. A robbery was in progress.
When we say the soil is rich, it is not a metaphor. It is as rich in energy as an oil well. A prairie converts that energy to flowers and roots and stems, which in turn pass back into the ground as dead organic matter. The layers of topsoil build up into a rich repository of energy, a bank. A farm field appropriates that energy, puts it into seeds we can eat. Much of the energy moves from the earth to the rings of fat around our necks and waists. And much of the energy is simply wasted, a trail of dollars billowing from the burglar's satchel.
I've already mentioned that we humans take 40 percent of the globe's primary productivity every year. You might have assumed we and our livestock eat our way through that volume, but this is not the case. Part of that total—almost a third of it—is the potential plant mass lost when forests are cleared for farming or when tropical rain forests are cut for grazing or when plows destroy the deep mat of prairie roots that held the whole business together, triggering erosion. The Dust Bowl was no accident of nature. A functioning grassland prairie produces more biomass each year than does even the most technologically advanced wheat field. The problem is, it's mostly a form of grass and grass roots that humans can't eat. So we replace the prairie with our own preferred grass, wheat. Never mind that we feed most of our grain to livestock, and that livestock is perfectly content to eat native grass. And never mind that there likely were more bison produced naturally on the Great Plains before farming than all of beef farming raises in the same area today. Our ancestors found it preferable to pluck the energy from the ground and when it ran out move on.
Today we do the same, only now when the vault is empty we fill it again with new energy in the form of oil-rich fertilizers. Oil is annual primary productivity stored as hydrocarbons, a trust fund of sorts, built up over many thousands of years. On average, it takes 5.5 gallons of fossil energy to restore a year's worth of lost fertility to an acre of eroded land—in 1997 we burned through more than 400 years' worth of ancient fossilized productivity, most of it from someplace else. Even as the earth beneath Iowa shrinks, it is being globalized.
Six thousand years before sodbusters broke up Iowa, their Caucasian blood ancestors broke up the Hungarian plain, an area just northwest of the Caucasus Mountains. Archaeologists call this tribe the LBK, short for linearbandkeramik, the German word that describes the distinctive pottery remnants that mark their occupation of Europe. Anthropologists call them the wheat-beef people, a name that better connects those ancients along the Danube to my fellow Montanans on the Upper Missouri River. These proto-Europeans had a full set of domesticated plants and animals, but wheat and beef dominated. All the domesticates came from an area along what is now the Iraq-Syria-Turkey border at the edges of the Zagros Mountains. This is the center of domestication for the Western world's main crops and livestock, ground zero of catastrophic agriculture.
Two other types of catastrophic agriculture evolved at roughly the same time, one centered on rice in what is now China and India and one centered on corn and potatoes in Central and South America. Rice, though, is tropical and its expansion depends on water, so it developed only in floodplains, estuaries, and swamps. Corn agriculture was every bit as voracious as wheat; the Aztecs could be as brutal and imperialistic as Romans or Brits, but the corn cultures collapsed with the onslaught of Spanish conquest. Corn itself simply joined the wheat-beef people's coalition. Wheat was the empire builder; its bare botanical facts dictated the motion and violence that we know as imperialism.
The wheat-beef people swept across the western European plains in less than 300 years, a conquest some archaeologists refer to as a “blitzkrieg.” A different race of humans, the Cro-Magnons—hunter-gatherers, not farmers—lived on those plains at the time. Their cave art at places such as Lascaux testifies to their sophistication and profound connection to wildlife. They probably did most of their hunting and gathering in uplands and river bottoms, places the wheat farmers didn't need, suggesting the possibility of coexistence. That's not what happened, however. Both genetic and linguistic evidence say that the farmers killed the hunters. The Basque people are probably the lone remnant descendants of Cro-Magnons, the only trace.
Hunter-gatherer archaeological sites of the period contain spear points that originally belonged to the farmers, and we can guess they weren't trade goods. One group of anthropologists concludes, “The evidence from the western extension of the LBK leaves little room for any other conclusion but that LBK-Mesolithic interactions were at best chilly and at worst hostile.” The world's surviving Blackfeet, Assiniboine Sioux, Inca, and Maori probably have the best idea of the nature of these interactions.
Wheat is temperate and prefers plowed-up grasslands. The globe has a limited stock of temperate grasslands, just as it has a limited stock of all other biomes. On average, about 10 percent of all other biomes remain in something like their native state today. Only 1 percent of temperate grasslands remains undestroyed. Wheat takes what it needs.
The supply of temperate grasslands lies in what are today the United States, Canada, the South American pampas, New Zealand, Australia, South Africa, Europe, and the Asiatic extension of the European plain into the sub-Siberian steppes. This area largely describes the First World, the developed world. Temperate grasslands make up not only the habitat of wheat and beef but also the globe's islands of Caucasians, of European surnames and languages. In 2000 the countries of the temperate grasslands, the neo-Europes, accounted for about 80 percent of all wheat exports in the world, and about 86 percent of all corn. That is to say, the neo-Europes drive the world's agriculture. The dominance does not stop with grain. These countries, plus the mothership—Europe—accounted for three fourths of all agricultural exports of all crops in the world in 1999.
Plato wrote of his country's farmlands:
What now remains of the formerly rich land is like the skeleton of a sick man. . . . Formerly, many of the mountains were arable. The plains that were full of rich soil are now marshes. Hills that were once covered with forests and produced abundant pasture now produce only food for bees. Once the land was enriched by yearly rains, which were not lost, as they are now, by flowing from the bare land into the sea. The soil was deep, it absorbed and kept the water in loamy soil, and the water that soaked into the hills fed springs and running streams everywhere. Now the abandoned shrines at spots where formerly there were springs attest that our description of the land is true.
Plato's lament is rooted in wheat agriculture, which depleted his country's soil and subsequently caused the series of declines that pushed centers of civilization to Rome, Turkey, and western Europe. By the fifth century, though, wheat's strategy of depleting and moving on ran up against the Atlantic Ocean. Fenced-in wheat agriculture is like rice agriculture. It balances its equations with famine. In the millennium between 500 and 1500, Britain suffered a major “corrective” famine about every ten years; there were seventy-five in France during the same period. The incidence, however, dropped sharply when colonization brought an influx of new food to Europe.
The new lands had an even greater effect on the colonists themselves. Thomas Jefferson, after enduring a lecture on the rustic nature by his hosts at a dinner party in Paris, pointed out that all of the Americans present were a good head taller than all of the French. Indeed, colonists in all of the neo-Europes enjoyed greater stature and longevity, as well as a lower infant-mortality rate—all indicators of the better nutrition afforded by the onetime spend down of the accumulated capital of virgin soil.
The precolonial famines of Europe raised the question: What would happen when the planet's supply of arable land ran out? We have a clear answer. In about 1960 expansion hit its limits and the supply of unfarmed, arable lands came to an end. There was nothing left to plow. What happened was grain yields tripled.
The accepted term for this strange turn of events is the green revolution, though it would be more properly labeled the amber revolution, because it applied exclusively to grain—wheat, rice, and corn. Plant breeders tinkered with the architecture of these three grains so that they could be hypercharged with irrigation water and chemical fertilizers, especially nitrogen. This innovation meshed nicely with the increased “efficiency” of the industrialized factory-farm system. With the possible exception of the domestication of wheat, the green revolution is the worst thing that has ever happened to the planet.
For openers, it disrupted long-standing patterns of rural life worldwide, moving a lot of no-longer-needed people off the land and into the world's most severe poverty. The experience in population control in the developing world is by now clear: It is not that people make more people so much as it is that they make more poor people. In the forty-year period beginning about 1960, the world's population doubled, adding virtually the entire increase of 3 billion to the world's poorest classes, the most fecund classes. The way in which the green revolution raised that grain contributed hugely to the population boom, and it is the weight of the population that leaves humanity in its present untenable position.
Discussion of these, the most poor, however, is largely irrelevant to the American situation. We say we have poor people here, but almost no one in this country lives on less than one dollar a day, the global benchmark for poverty. It marks off a class of about 1.3 billion people, the hard core of the larger group of 2 billion chronically malnourished people—that is, one third of humanity. We may forget about them, as most Americans do.
More relevant here are the methods of the green revolution, which added orders of magnitude to the devastation. By mining the iron for tractors, drilling the new oil to fuel them and to make nitrogen fertilizers, and by taking the water that rain and rivers had meant for other lands, farming had extended its boundaries, its dominion, to lands that were not farmable. At the same time, it extended its boundaries across time, tapping fossil energy, stripping past assets.
The common assumption these days is that we muster our weapons to secure oil, not food. There's a little joke in this. Ever since we ran out of arable land, food is oil. Every single calorie we eat is backed by at least a calorie of oil, more like ten. In 1940 the average farm in the United States produced 2.3 calories of food energy for every calorie of fossil energy it used. By 1974 (the last year in which anyone looked closely at this issue), that ratio was 1:1. And this understates the problem, because at the same time that there is more oil in our food there is less oil in our oil. A couple of generations ago we spent a lot less energy drilling, pumping, and distributing than we do now. In the 1940s we got about 100 barrels of oil back for every barrel of oil we spent getting it. Today each barrel invested in the process returns only ten, a calculation that no doubt fails to include the fuel burned by the Hummers and Blackhawks we use to maintain access to the oil in Iraq.
David Pimentel, an expert on food and energy at Cornell University, has estimated that if all of the world ate the way the United States eats, humanity would exhaust all known global fossil-fuel reserves in just over seven years. Pimentel has his detractors. Some have accused him of being off on other calculations by as much as 30 percent. Fine. Make it ten years.
Fertilizer makes a pretty fine bomb right off the shelf, a chemistry lesson Timothy McVeigh taught at Oklahoma City's Alfred P. Murrah Federal Building in 1995—not a small matter, in that the green revolution has made nitrogen fertilizers ubiquitous in some of the more violent and desperate corners of the world. Still, there is more to contemplate in nitrogen's less sensational chemistry.
The chemophobia of modern times excludes fear of the simple elements of chemistry's periodic table. We circulate petitions, hold hearings, launch websites, and buy and sell legislators in regard to polysyllabic organic compounds—polychlorinated biphenyls, polyvinyls, DDT, 2-4d, that sort of thing—not simple carbon or nitrogen. Not that agriculture's use of the more ornate chemistry is benign—an infant born in a rural, wheat-producing county in the United States has about twice the chance of suffering birth defects as one born in a rural place that doesn't produce wheat, an effect researchers blame on chlorophenoxy herbicides. Focusing on pesticide pollution, though, misses the worst of the pollutants. Forget the polysyllabic organics. It is nitrogen—the wellspring of fertility relied upon by every Eden-obsessed backyard gardener and suburban groundskeeper—that we should fear most.
Those who model our planet as an organism do so on the basis that the earth appears to breathe—it thrives by converting a short list of basic elements from one compound into the next, just as our own bodies cycle oxygen into carbon dioxide and plants cycle carbon dioxide into oxygen. In fact, two of the planet's most fundamental humors are oxygen and carbon dioxide. Another is nitrogen.
Nitrogen can be released from its “fixed” state as a solid in the soil by natural processes that allow it to circulate freely in the atmosphere. This also can be done artificially. Indeed, humans now contribute more nitrogen to the nitrogen cycle than the planet itself does. That is, humans have doubled the amount of nitrogen in play.
This has led to an imbalance. It is easier to create nitrogen fertilizer than it is to apply it evenly to fields. When farmers dump nitrogen on a crop, much is wasted. It runs into the water and soil, where it either reacts chemically with its surroundings to form new compounds or flows off to fertilize something else, somewhere else.
That chemical reaction, called acidification, is noxious and contributes significantly to acid rain. One of the compounds produced by acidification is nitrous oxide, which aggravates the greenhouse effect. Green growing things normally offset global warming by sucking up carbon dioxide, but nitrogen on farm fields plus methane from decomposing vegetation make every farmed acre, like every acre of Los Angeles freeway, a net contributor to global warming. Fertilization is equally worrisome. Rainfall and irrigation water inevitably washes the nitrogen from fields to creeks and streams, which flows into rivers, which floods into the ocean. This explains why the Mississippi River, which drains the nation's Corn Belt, is an environmental catastrophe. The nitrogen fertilizes artificially large blooms of algae that in growing suck all the oxygen from the water, a condition biologists call anoxia, which means “oxygen-depleted.” Here there's no need to calculate long-term effects, because life in such places has no long term: everything dies immediately. The Mississippi River's heavily fertilized effluvia has created a dead zone in the Gulf of Mexico the size of New Jersey.
America's biggest crop, grain corn, is completely unpalatable. It is raw material for an industry that manufactures food substitutes. Likewise, you can't eat unprocessed wheat. You certainly can't eat hay. You can eat unprocessed soybeans, but mostly we don't. These four crops cover 82 percent of American cropland. Agriculture in this country is not about food; it's about commodities that require the outlay of still more energy to become food.
About two thirds of U.S. grain corn is labeled “processed,” meaning it is milled and otherwise refined for food or industrial uses. More than 45 percent of that becomes sugar, especially high-fructose corn sweeteners, the keystone ingredient in three quarters of all processed foods, especially soft drinks, the food of America's poor and working classes. It is not a coincidence that the American pandemic of obesity tracks rather nicely with the fivefold increase in corn-syrup production since Archer Daniels Midland developed a high-fructose version of the stuff in the early seventies. Nor is it a coincidence that the plague selects the poor, who eat the most processed food.
It began with the industrialization of Victorian England. The empire was then flush with sugar from plantations in the colonies. Meantime the cities were flush with factory workers. There was no good way to feed them. And thus was born the afternoon tea break, the tea consisting primarily of warm water and sugar. If the workers were well off, they could also afford bread with heavily sugared jam—sugar-powered industrialization. There was a 500 percent increase in per capita sugar consumption in Britain between 1860 and 1890, around the time when the life expectancy of a male factory worker was seventeen years. By the end of the century the average Brit was getting about one sixth of his total nutrition from sugar, exactly the same percentage Americans get today—double what nutritionists recommend.
There is another energy matter to consider here, though. The grinding, milling, wetting, drying, and baking of a breakfast cereal requires about four calories of energy for every calorie of food energy it produces. A two-pound bag of breakfast cereal burns the energy of a half-gallon of gasoline in its making. All together the food-processing industry in the United States uses about ten calories of fossil-fuel energy for every calorie of food energy it produces.
That number does not include the fuel used in transporting the food from the factory to a store near you, or the fuel used by millions of people driving to thousands of super discount stores on the edge of town, where the land is cheap. It appears, however, that the corn cycle is about to come full circle. If a bipartisan coalition of farm-state lawmakers has their way—and it appears they will—we will soon buy gasoline containing twice as much fuel alcohol as it does now. Fuel alcohol already ranks second as a use for processed corn in the United States, just behind corn sweeteners. According to one set of calculations, we spend more calories of fossil-fuel energy making ethanol than we gain from it. The Department of Agriculture says the ratio is closer to a gallon and a quart of ethanol for every gallon of fossil fuel we invest. The USDA calls this a bargain, because gasohol is a “clean fuel.” This claim to cleanness is in dispute at the tailpipe level, and it certainly ignores the dead zone in the Gulf of Mexico, pesticide pollution, and the haze of global gases gathering over every farm field. Nor does this claim cover clean conscience; some still might be unsettled knowing that our SUVs' demands for fuel compete with the poor's demand for grain.
Green eaters, especially vegetarians, advocate eating low on the food chain, a simple matter of energy flow. Eating a carrot gives the diner all that carrot's energy, but feeding carrots to a chicken, then eating the chicken, reduces the energy by a factor of ten. The chicken wastes some energy, stores some as feathers, bones, and other inedibles, and uses most of it just to live long enough to be eaten. As a rough rule of thumb, that factor of ten applies to each level up the food chain, which is why some fish, such as tuna, can be a horror in all of this. Tuna is a secondary predator, meaning it not only doesn't eat plants but eats other fish that themselves eat other fish, adding a zero to the multiplier each notch up, easily a hundred times, more like a thousand times less efficient than eating a plant.
This is fine as far as it goes, but the vegetarian's case can break down on some details. On the moral issues, vegetarians claim their habits are kinder to animals, though it is difficult to see how wiping out 99 percent of wildlife's habitat, as farming has done in Iowa, is a kindness. In rural Michigan, for example, the potato farmers have a peculiar tactic for dealing with the predations of whitetail deer. They gut-shoot them with small-bore rifles, in hopes the deer will limp off to the woods and die where they won't stink up the potato fields.
Animal rights aside, vegetarians can lose the edge in the energy argument by eating processed food, with its ten calories of fossil energy for every calorie of food energy produced. The question, then, is: Does eating processed food such as soy burger or soy milk cancel the energy benefits of vegetarianism, which is to say, can I eat my lamb chops in peace? Maybe. If I've done my due diligence, I will have found out that the particular lamb I am eating was both local and grass-fed, two factors that of course greatly reduce the embedded energy in a meal. I know of ranches here in Montana, for instance, where sheep eat native grass under closely controlled circumstances—no farming, no plows, no corn, no nitrogen. Assets have not been stripped. I can't eat the grass directly. This can go on. There are little niches like this in the system. Each person's individual charge is to find such niches.
Chances are, though, any meat eater will come out on the short end of this argument, especially in the United States. Take the case of beef. Cattle are grazers, so in theory could live like the grass-fed lamb. Some cattle cultures—those of South America and Mexico, for example—have perfected wonderful cuisines based on grass-fed beef. This is not our habit in the United States, and it is simply a matter of habit. Eighty percent of the grain the United States produces goes to livestock. Seventy-eight percent of all of our beef comes from feed lots, where the cattle eat grain, mostly corn and wheat. So do most of our hogs and chickens. The cattle spend their adult lives packed shoulder to shoulder in a space not much bigger than their bodies, up to their knees in shit, being stuffed with grain and a constant stream of antibiotics to prevent the disease this sort of confinement invariably engenders. The manure is rich in nitrogen and once provided a farm's fertilizer. The feedlots, however, are now far removed from farm fields, so it is simply not “efficient” to haul it to cornfields. It is waste. It exhales methane, a global-warming gas. It pollutes streams. It takes thirty-five calories of fossil fuel to make a calorie of beef this way; sixty-eight to make one calorie of pork.
Still, these livestock do something we can't. They convert grain's carbohydrates to high-quality protein. All well and good, except that per capita protein production in the United States is about double what an average adult needs per day. Excess cannot be stored as protein in the human body but is simply converted to fat. This is the end result of a factory-farm system that appears as a living, continental-scale monument to Rube Goldberg, a black-mass remake of the loaves-and-fishes miracle. Prairie's productivity is lost for grain, grain's productivity is lost in livestock, livestock's protein is lost to human fat—all federally subsidized for about $15 billion a year, two thirds of which goes directly to only two crops, corn and wheat.
This explains why the energy expert David Pimentel is so worried that the rest of the world will adopt America's methods. He should be, because the rest of the world is. Mexico now feeds 45 percent of its grain to livestock, up from 5 percent in 1960. Egypt went from 3 percent to 31 percent in the same period, and China, with a sixth of the world's population, has gone from 8 percent to 26 percent. All of these places have poor people who could use the grain, but they can't afford it.
I live among elk and have learned to respect them. One moonlit night during the dead of last winter, I looked out my bedroom window to see about twenty of them grazing a plot of grass the size of a living room. Just that small patch among acres of other species of native prairie grass. Why that species and only that species of grass that night in the worst of winter when the threat to their survival was the greatest? What magic nutrient did this species alone contain? What does a wild animal know that we don't? I think we need this knowledge.
Food is politics. That being the case, I voted twice in 2002. The day after Election Day, in a truly dismal mood, I climbed the mountain behind my house and found a small herd of elk grazing native grasses in the morning sunlight. My respect for these creatures over the years has become great enough that on that morning I did not hesitate but went straight to my job, which was to rack a shell and drop one cow elk, my household's annual protein supply. I voted with my weapon of choice—an act not all that uncommon in this world, largely, I think, as a result of the way we grow food. I can see why it is catching on. Such a vote has a certain satisfying heft and finality about it. My particular bit of violence, though, is more satisfying, I think, than the rest of the globe's ordinary political mayhem. I used a rifle to opt out of an insane system. I killed, but then so did you when you bought that package of burger, even when you bought that package of tofu burger. I killed, then the rest of those elk went on, as did the grasses, the birds, the trees, the coyotes, mountain lions, and bugs, the fundamental productivity of an intact natural system, all of it went on.
This is from Harper's Magazine:
The oil we eat:
Following the food chain back to Iraq
By Richard Manning
The secret of great wealth with no obvious source is some forgotten crime, forgotten because it was done neatly.—Balzac
The journalist's rule says: follow the money. This rule, however, is not really axiomatic but derivative, in that money, as even our vice president will tell you, is really a way of tracking energy. We'll follow the energy.
We learn as children that there is no free lunch, that you don't get something from nothing, that what goes up must come down, and so on. The scientific version of these verities is only slightly more complex. As James Prescott Joule discovered in the nineteenth century, there is only so much energy. You can change it from motion to heat, from heat to light, but there will never be more of it and there will never be less of it. The conservation of energy is not an option, it is a fact. This is the first law of thermodynamics.
Special as we humans are, we get no exemptions from the rules. All animals eat plants or eat animals that eat plants. This is the food chain, and pulling it is the unique ability of plants to turn sunlight into stored energy in the form of carbohydrates, the basic fuel of all animals. Solar-powered photosynthesis is the only way to make this fuel. There is no alternative to plant energy, just as there is no alternative to oxygen. The results of taking away our plant energy may not be as sudden as cutting off oxygen, but they are as sure.
Scientists have a name for the total amount of plant mass created by Earth in a given year, the total budget for life. They call it the planet's “primary productivity.” There have been two efforts to figure out how that productivity is spent, one by a group at Stanford University, the other an independent accounting by the biologist Stuart Pimm. Both conclude that we humans, a single species among millions, consume about 40 percent of Earth's primary productivity, 40 percent of all there is. This simple number may explain why the current extinction rate is 1,000 times that which existed before human domination of the planet. We 6 billion have simply stolen the food, the rich among us a lot more than others.
Energy cannot be created or canceled, but it can be concentrated. This is the larger and profoundly explanatory context of a national-security memo George Kennan wrote in 1948 as the head of a State Department planning committee, ostensibly about Asian policy but really about how the United States was to deal with its newfound role as the dominant force on Earth. “We have about 50 percent of the world's wealth but only 6.3 percent of its population,” Kennan wrote. “In this situation, we cannot fail to be the object of envy and resentment. Our real task in the coming period is to devise a pattern of relationships which will permit us to maintain this position of disparity without positive detriment to our national security. To do so, we will have to dispense with all sentimentality and day-dreaming; and our attention will have to be concentrated everywhere on our immediate national objectives. We need not deceive ourselves that we can afford today the luxury of altruism and world-benefaction.”“The day is not far off,” Kennan concluded, “when we are going to have to deal in straight power concepts.”
If you follow the energy, eventually you will end up in a field somewhere. Humans engage in a dizzying array of artifice and industry. Nonetheless, more than two thirds of humanity's cut of primary productivity results from agriculture, two thirds of which in turn consists of three plants: rice, wheat, and corn. In the 10,000 years since humans domesticated these grains, their status has remained undiminished, most likely because they are able to store solar energy in uniquely dense, transportable bundles of carbohydrates. They are to the plant world what a barrel of refined oil is to the hydrocarbon world. Indeed, aside from hydrocarbons they are the most concentrated form of true wealth—sun energy—to be found on the planet.
As Kennan recognized, however, the maintenance of such a concentration of wealth often requires violent action. Agriculture is a recent human experiment. For most of human history, we lived by gathering or killing a broad variety of nature's offerings. Why humans might have traded this approach for the complexities of agriculture is an interesting and long-debated question, especially because the skeletal evidence clearly indicates that early farmers were more poorly nourished, more disease-ridden and deformed, than their hunter-gatherer contemporaries. Farming did not improve most lives. The evidence that best points to the answer, I think, lies in the difference between early agricultural villages and their pre-agricultural counterparts—the presence not just of grain but of granaries and, more tellingly, of just a few houses significantly larger and more ornate than all the others attached to those granaries. Agriculture was not so much about food as it was about the accumulation of wealth. It benefited some humans, and those people have been in charge ever since.
Domestication was also a radical change in the distribution of wealth within the plant world. Plants can spend their solar income in several ways. The dominant and prudent strategy is to allocate most of it to building roots, stem, bark—a conservative portfolio of investments that allows the plant to better gather energy and survive the downturn years. Further, by living in diverse stands (a given chunk of native prairie contains maybe 200 species of plants), these perennials provide services for one another, such as retaining water, protecting one another from wind, and fixing free nitrogen from the air to use as fertilizer. Diversity allows a system to “sponsor its own fertility,” to use visionary agronomist Wes Jackson's phrase. This is the plant world's norm.
There is a very narrow group of annuals, however, that grow in patches of a single species and store almost all of their income as seed, a tight bundle of carbohydrates easily exploited by seed eaters such as ourselves. Under normal circumstances, this eggs-in-one-basket strategy is a dumb idea for a plant. But not during catastrophes such as floods, fires, and volcanic eruptions. Such catastrophes strip established plant communities and create opportunities for wind-scattered entrepreneurial seed bearers. It is no accident that no matter where agriculture sprouted on the globe, it always happened near rivers. You might assume, as many have, that this is because the plants needed the water or nutrients. Mostly this is not true. They needed the power of flooding, which scoured landscapes and stripped out competitors. Nor is it an accident, I think, that agriculture arose independently and simultaneously around the globe just as the last ice age ended, a time of enormous upheaval when glacial melt let loose sea-size lakes to create tidal waves of erosion. It was a time of catastrophe.
Corn, rice, and wheat are especially adapted to catastrophe. It is their niche. In the natural scheme of things, a catastrophe would create a blank slate, bare soil, that was good for them. Then, under normal circumstances, succession would quickly close that niche. The annuals would colonize. Their roots would stabilize the soil, accumulate organic matter, provide cover. Eventually the catastrophic niche would close. Farming is the process of ripping that niche open again and again. It is an annual artificial catastrophe, and it requires the equivalent of three or four tons of TNT per acre for a modern American farm. Iowa's fields require the energy of 4,000 Nagasaki bombs every year.
Iowa is almost all fields now. Little prairie remains, and if you can find what Iowans call a “postage stamp” remnant of some, it most likely will abut a cornfield. This allows an observation. Walk from the prairie to the field, and you probably will step down about six feet, as if the land had been stolen from beneath you. Settlers' accounts of the prairie conquest mention a sound, a series of pops, like pistol shots, the sound of stout grass roots breaking before a moldboard plow. A robbery was in progress.
When we say the soil is rich, it is not a metaphor. It is as rich in energy as an oil well. A prairie converts that energy to flowers and roots and stems, which in turn pass back into the ground as dead organic matter. The layers of topsoil build up into a rich repository of energy, a bank. A farm field appropriates that energy, puts it into seeds we can eat. Much of the energy moves from the earth to the rings of fat around our necks and waists. And much of the energy is simply wasted, a trail of dollars billowing from the burglar's satchel.
I've already mentioned that we humans take 40 percent of the globe's primary productivity every year. You might have assumed we and our livestock eat our way through that volume, but this is not the case. Part of that total—almost a third of it—is the potential plant mass lost when forests are cleared for farming or when tropical rain forests are cut for grazing or when plows destroy the deep mat of prairie roots that held the whole business together, triggering erosion. The Dust Bowl was no accident of nature. A functioning grassland prairie produces more biomass each year than does even the most technologically advanced wheat field. The problem is, it's mostly a form of grass and grass roots that humans can't eat. So we replace the prairie with our own preferred grass, wheat. Never mind that we feed most of our grain to livestock, and that livestock is perfectly content to eat native grass. And never mind that there likely were more bison produced naturally on the Great Plains before farming than all of beef farming raises in the same area today. Our ancestors found it preferable to pluck the energy from the ground and when it ran out move on.
Today we do the same, only now when the vault is empty we fill it again with new energy in the form of oil-rich fertilizers. Oil is annual primary productivity stored as hydrocarbons, a trust fund of sorts, built up over many thousands of years. On average, it takes 5.5 gallons of fossil energy to restore a year's worth of lost fertility to an acre of eroded land—in 1997 we burned through more than 400 years' worth of ancient fossilized productivity, most of it from someplace else. Even as the earth beneath Iowa shrinks, it is being globalized.
Six thousand years before sodbusters broke up Iowa, their Caucasian blood ancestors broke up the Hungarian plain, an area just northwest of the Caucasus Mountains. Archaeologists call this tribe the LBK, short for linearbandkeramik, the German word that describes the distinctive pottery remnants that mark their occupation of Europe. Anthropologists call them the wheat-beef people, a name that better connects those ancients along the Danube to my fellow Montanans on the Upper Missouri River. These proto-Europeans had a full set of domesticated plants and animals, but wheat and beef dominated. All the domesticates came from an area along what is now the Iraq-Syria-Turkey border at the edges of the Zagros Mountains. This is the center of domestication for the Western world's main crops and livestock, ground zero of catastrophic agriculture.
Two other types of catastrophic agriculture evolved at roughly the same time, one centered on rice in what is now China and India and one centered on corn and potatoes in Central and South America. Rice, though, is tropical and its expansion depends on water, so it developed only in floodplains, estuaries, and swamps. Corn agriculture was every bit as voracious as wheat; the Aztecs could be as brutal and imperialistic as Romans or Brits, but the corn cultures collapsed with the onslaught of Spanish conquest. Corn itself simply joined the wheat-beef people's coalition. Wheat was the empire builder; its bare botanical facts dictated the motion and violence that we know as imperialism.
The wheat-beef people swept across the western European plains in less than 300 years, a conquest some archaeologists refer to as a “blitzkrieg.” A different race of humans, the Cro-Magnons—hunter-gatherers, not farmers—lived on those plains at the time. Their cave art at places such as Lascaux testifies to their sophistication and profound connection to wildlife. They probably did most of their hunting and gathering in uplands and river bottoms, places the wheat farmers didn't need, suggesting the possibility of coexistence. That's not what happened, however. Both genetic and linguistic evidence say that the farmers killed the hunters. The Basque people are probably the lone remnant descendants of Cro-Magnons, the only trace.
Hunter-gatherer archaeological sites of the period contain spear points that originally belonged to the farmers, and we can guess they weren't trade goods. One group of anthropologists concludes, “The evidence from the western extension of the LBK leaves little room for any other conclusion but that LBK-Mesolithic interactions were at best chilly and at worst hostile.” The world's surviving Blackfeet, Assiniboine Sioux, Inca, and Maori probably have the best idea of the nature of these interactions.
Wheat is temperate and prefers plowed-up grasslands. The globe has a limited stock of temperate grasslands, just as it has a limited stock of all other biomes. On average, about 10 percent of all other biomes remain in something like their native state today. Only 1 percent of temperate grasslands remains undestroyed. Wheat takes what it needs.
The supply of temperate grasslands lies in what are today the United States, Canada, the South American pampas, New Zealand, Australia, South Africa, Europe, and the Asiatic extension of the European plain into the sub-Siberian steppes. This area largely describes the First World, the developed world. Temperate grasslands make up not only the habitat of wheat and beef but also the globe's islands of Caucasians, of European surnames and languages. In 2000 the countries of the temperate grasslands, the neo-Europes, accounted for about 80 percent of all wheat exports in the world, and about 86 percent of all corn. That is to say, the neo-Europes drive the world's agriculture. The dominance does not stop with grain. These countries, plus the mothership—Europe—accounted for three fourths of all agricultural exports of all crops in the world in 1999.
Plato wrote of his country's farmlands:
What now remains of the formerly rich land is like the skeleton of a sick man. . . . Formerly, many of the mountains were arable. The plains that were full of rich soil are now marshes. Hills that were once covered with forests and produced abundant pasture now produce only food for bees. Once the land was enriched by yearly rains, which were not lost, as they are now, by flowing from the bare land into the sea. The soil was deep, it absorbed and kept the water in loamy soil, and the water that soaked into the hills fed springs and running streams everywhere. Now the abandoned shrines at spots where formerly there were springs attest that our description of the land is true.
Plato's lament is rooted in wheat agriculture, which depleted his country's soil and subsequently caused the series of declines that pushed centers of civilization to Rome, Turkey, and western Europe. By the fifth century, though, wheat's strategy of depleting and moving on ran up against the Atlantic Ocean. Fenced-in wheat agriculture is like rice agriculture. It balances its equations with famine. In the millennium between 500 and 1500, Britain suffered a major “corrective” famine about every ten years; there were seventy-five in France during the same period. The incidence, however, dropped sharply when colonization brought an influx of new food to Europe.
The new lands had an even greater effect on the colonists themselves. Thomas Jefferson, after enduring a lecture on the rustic nature by his hosts at a dinner party in Paris, pointed out that all of the Americans present were a good head taller than all of the French. Indeed, colonists in all of the neo-Europes enjoyed greater stature and longevity, as well as a lower infant-mortality rate—all indicators of the better nutrition afforded by the onetime spend down of the accumulated capital of virgin soil.
The precolonial famines of Europe raised the question: What would happen when the planet's supply of arable land ran out? We have a clear answer. In about 1960 expansion hit its limits and the supply of unfarmed, arable lands came to an end. There was nothing left to plow. What happened was grain yields tripled.
The accepted term for this strange turn of events is the green revolution, though it would be more properly labeled the amber revolution, because it applied exclusively to grain—wheat, rice, and corn. Plant breeders tinkered with the architecture of these three grains so that they could be hypercharged with irrigation water and chemical fertilizers, especially nitrogen. This innovation meshed nicely with the increased “efficiency” of the industrialized factory-farm system. With the possible exception of the domestication of wheat, the green revolution is the worst thing that has ever happened to the planet.
For openers, it disrupted long-standing patterns of rural life worldwide, moving a lot of no-longer-needed people off the land and into the world's most severe poverty. The experience in population control in the developing world is by now clear: It is not that people make more people so much as it is that they make more poor people. In the forty-year period beginning about 1960, the world's population doubled, adding virtually the entire increase of 3 billion to the world's poorest classes, the most fecund classes. The way in which the green revolution raised that grain contributed hugely to the population boom, and it is the weight of the population that leaves humanity in its present untenable position.
Discussion of these, the most poor, however, is largely irrelevant to the American situation. We say we have poor people here, but almost no one in this country lives on less than one dollar a day, the global benchmark for poverty. It marks off a class of about 1.3 billion people, the hard core of the larger group of 2 billion chronically malnourished people—that is, one third of humanity. We may forget about them, as most Americans do.
More relevant here are the methods of the green revolution, which added orders of magnitude to the devastation. By mining the iron for tractors, drilling the new oil to fuel them and to make nitrogen fertilizers, and by taking the water that rain and rivers had meant for other lands, farming had extended its boundaries, its dominion, to lands that were not farmable. At the same time, it extended its boundaries across time, tapping fossil energy, stripping past assets.
The common assumption these days is that we muster our weapons to secure oil, not food. There's a little joke in this. Ever since we ran out of arable land, food is oil. Every single calorie we eat is backed by at least a calorie of oil, more like ten. In 1940 the average farm in the United States produced 2.3 calories of food energy for every calorie of fossil energy it used. By 1974 (the last year in which anyone looked closely at this issue), that ratio was 1:1. And this understates the problem, because at the same time that there is more oil in our food there is less oil in our oil. A couple of generations ago we spent a lot less energy drilling, pumping, and distributing than we do now. In the 1940s we got about 100 barrels of oil back for every barrel of oil we spent getting it. Today each barrel invested in the process returns only ten, a calculation that no doubt fails to include the fuel burned by the Hummers and Blackhawks we use to maintain access to the oil in Iraq.
David Pimentel, an expert on food and energy at Cornell University, has estimated that if all of the world ate the way the United States eats, humanity would exhaust all known global fossil-fuel reserves in just over seven years. Pimentel has his detractors. Some have accused him of being off on other calculations by as much as 30 percent. Fine. Make it ten years.
Fertilizer makes a pretty fine bomb right off the shelf, a chemistry lesson Timothy McVeigh taught at Oklahoma City's Alfred P. Murrah Federal Building in 1995—not a small matter, in that the green revolution has made nitrogen fertilizers ubiquitous in some of the more violent and desperate corners of the world. Still, there is more to contemplate in nitrogen's less sensational chemistry.
The chemophobia of modern times excludes fear of the simple elements of chemistry's periodic table. We circulate petitions, hold hearings, launch websites, and buy and sell legislators in regard to polysyllabic organic compounds—polychlorinated biphenyls, polyvinyls, DDT, 2-4d, that sort of thing—not simple carbon or nitrogen. Not that agriculture's use of the more ornate chemistry is benign—an infant born in a rural, wheat-producing county in the United States has about twice the chance of suffering birth defects as one born in a rural place that doesn't produce wheat, an effect researchers blame on chlorophenoxy herbicides. Focusing on pesticide pollution, though, misses the worst of the pollutants. Forget the polysyllabic organics. It is nitrogen—the wellspring of fertility relied upon by every Eden-obsessed backyard gardener and suburban groundskeeper—that we should fear most.
Those who model our planet as an organism do so on the basis that the earth appears to breathe—it thrives by converting a short list of basic elements from one compound into the next, just as our own bodies cycle oxygen into carbon dioxide and plants cycle carbon dioxide into oxygen. In fact, two of the planet's most fundamental humors are oxygen and carbon dioxide. Another is nitrogen.
Nitrogen can be released from its “fixed” state as a solid in the soil by natural processes that allow it to circulate freely in the atmosphere. This also can be done artificially. Indeed, humans now contribute more nitrogen to the nitrogen cycle than the planet itself does. That is, humans have doubled the amount of nitrogen in play.
This has led to an imbalance. It is easier to create nitrogen fertilizer than it is to apply it evenly to fields. When farmers dump nitrogen on a crop, much is wasted. It runs into the water and soil, where it either reacts chemically with its surroundings to form new compounds or flows off to fertilize something else, somewhere else.
That chemical reaction, called acidification, is noxious and contributes significantly to acid rain. One of the compounds produced by acidification is nitrous oxide, which aggravates the greenhouse effect. Green growing things normally offset global warming by sucking up carbon dioxide, but nitrogen on farm fields plus methane from decomposing vegetation make every farmed acre, like every acre of Los Angeles freeway, a net contributor to global warming. Fertilization is equally worrisome. Rainfall and irrigation water inevitably washes the nitrogen from fields to creeks and streams, which flows into rivers, which floods into the ocean. This explains why the Mississippi River, which drains the nation's Corn Belt, is an environmental catastrophe. The nitrogen fertilizes artificially large blooms of algae that in growing suck all the oxygen from the water, a condition biologists call anoxia, which means “oxygen-depleted.” Here there's no need to calculate long-term effects, because life in such places has no long term: everything dies immediately. The Mississippi River's heavily fertilized effluvia has created a dead zone in the Gulf of Mexico the size of New Jersey.
America's biggest crop, grain corn, is completely unpalatable. It is raw material for an industry that manufactures food substitutes. Likewise, you can't eat unprocessed wheat. You certainly can't eat hay. You can eat unprocessed soybeans, but mostly we don't. These four crops cover 82 percent of American cropland. Agriculture in this country is not about food; it's about commodities that require the outlay of still more energy to become food.
About two thirds of U.S. grain corn is labeled “processed,” meaning it is milled and otherwise refined for food or industrial uses. More than 45 percent of that becomes sugar, especially high-fructose corn sweeteners, the keystone ingredient in three quarters of all processed foods, especially soft drinks, the food of America's poor and working classes. It is not a coincidence that the American pandemic of obesity tracks rather nicely with the fivefold increase in corn-syrup production since Archer Daniels Midland developed a high-fructose version of the stuff in the early seventies. Nor is it a coincidence that the plague selects the poor, who eat the most processed food.
It began with the industrialization of Victorian England. The empire was then flush with sugar from plantations in the colonies. Meantime the cities were flush with factory workers. There was no good way to feed them. And thus was born the afternoon tea break, the tea consisting primarily of warm water and sugar. If the workers were well off, they could also afford bread with heavily sugared jam—sugar-powered industrialization. There was a 500 percent increase in per capita sugar consumption in Britain between 1860 and 1890, around the time when the life expectancy of a male factory worker was seventeen years. By the end of the century the average Brit was getting about one sixth of his total nutrition from sugar, exactly the same percentage Americans get today—double what nutritionists recommend.
There is another energy matter to consider here, though. The grinding, milling, wetting, drying, and baking of a breakfast cereal requires about four calories of energy for every calorie of food energy it produces. A two-pound bag of breakfast cereal burns the energy of a half-gallon of gasoline in its making. All together the food-processing industry in the United States uses about ten calories of fossil-fuel energy for every calorie of food energy it produces.
That number does not include the fuel used in transporting the food from the factory to a store near you, or the fuel used by millions of people driving to thousands of super discount stores on the edge of town, where the land is cheap. It appears, however, that the corn cycle is about to come full circle. If a bipartisan coalition of farm-state lawmakers has their way—and it appears they will—we will soon buy gasoline containing twice as much fuel alcohol as it does now. Fuel alcohol already ranks second as a use for processed corn in the United States, just behind corn sweeteners. According to one set of calculations, we spend more calories of fossil-fuel energy making ethanol than we gain from it. The Department of Agriculture says the ratio is closer to a gallon and a quart of ethanol for every gallon of fossil fuel we invest. The USDA calls this a bargain, because gasohol is a “clean fuel.” This claim to cleanness is in dispute at the tailpipe level, and it certainly ignores the dead zone in the Gulf of Mexico, pesticide pollution, and the haze of global gases gathering over every farm field. Nor does this claim cover clean conscience; some still might be unsettled knowing that our SUVs' demands for fuel compete with the poor's demand for grain.
Green eaters, especially vegetarians, advocate eating low on the food chain, a simple matter of energy flow. Eating a carrot gives the diner all that carrot's energy, but feeding carrots to a chicken, then eating the chicken, reduces the energy by a factor of ten. The chicken wastes some energy, stores some as feathers, bones, and other inedibles, and uses most of it just to live long enough to be eaten. As a rough rule of thumb, that factor of ten applies to each level up the food chain, which is why some fish, such as tuna, can be a horror in all of this. Tuna is a secondary predator, meaning it not only doesn't eat plants but eats other fish that themselves eat other fish, adding a zero to the multiplier each notch up, easily a hundred times, more like a thousand times less efficient than eating a plant.
This is fine as far as it goes, but the vegetarian's case can break down on some details. On the moral issues, vegetarians claim their habits are kinder to animals, though it is difficult to see how wiping out 99 percent of wildlife's habitat, as farming has done in Iowa, is a kindness. In rural Michigan, for example, the potato farmers have a peculiar tactic for dealing with the predations of whitetail deer. They gut-shoot them with small-bore rifles, in hopes the deer will limp off to the woods and die where they won't stink up the potato fields.
Animal rights aside, vegetarians can lose the edge in the energy argument by eating processed food, with its ten calories of fossil energy for every calorie of food energy produced. The question, then, is: Does eating processed food such as soy burger or soy milk cancel the energy benefits of vegetarianism, which is to say, can I eat my lamb chops in peace? Maybe. If I've done my due diligence, I will have found out that the particular lamb I am eating was both local and grass-fed, two factors that of course greatly reduce the embedded energy in a meal. I know of ranches here in Montana, for instance, where sheep eat native grass under closely controlled circumstances—no farming, no plows, no corn, no nitrogen. Assets have not been stripped. I can't eat the grass directly. This can go on. There are little niches like this in the system. Each person's individual charge is to find such niches.
Chances are, though, any meat eater will come out on the short end of this argument, especially in the United States. Take the case of beef. Cattle are grazers, so in theory could live like the grass-fed lamb. Some cattle cultures—those of South America and Mexico, for example—have perfected wonderful cuisines based on grass-fed beef. This is not our habit in the United States, and it is simply a matter of habit. Eighty percent of the grain the United States produces goes to livestock. Seventy-eight percent of all of our beef comes from feed lots, where the cattle eat grain, mostly corn and wheat. So do most of our hogs and chickens. The cattle spend their adult lives packed shoulder to shoulder in a space not much bigger than their bodies, up to their knees in shit, being stuffed with grain and a constant stream of antibiotics to prevent the disease this sort of confinement invariably engenders. The manure is rich in nitrogen and once provided a farm's fertilizer. The feedlots, however, are now far removed from farm fields, so it is simply not “efficient” to haul it to cornfields. It is waste. It exhales methane, a global-warming gas. It pollutes streams. It takes thirty-five calories of fossil fuel to make a calorie of beef this way; sixty-eight to make one calorie of pork.
Still, these livestock do something we can't. They convert grain's carbohydrates to high-quality protein. All well and good, except that per capita protein production in the United States is about double what an average adult needs per day. Excess cannot be stored as protein in the human body but is simply converted to fat. This is the end result of a factory-farm system that appears as a living, continental-scale monument to Rube Goldberg, a black-mass remake of the loaves-and-fishes miracle. Prairie's productivity is lost for grain, grain's productivity is lost in livestock, livestock's protein is lost to human fat—all federally subsidized for about $15 billion a year, two thirds of which goes directly to only two crops, corn and wheat.
This explains why the energy expert David Pimentel is so worried that the rest of the world will adopt America's methods. He should be, because the rest of the world is. Mexico now feeds 45 percent of its grain to livestock, up from 5 percent in 1960. Egypt went from 3 percent to 31 percent in the same period, and China, with a sixth of the world's population, has gone from 8 percent to 26 percent. All of these places have poor people who could use the grain, but they can't afford it.
I live among elk and have learned to respect them. One moonlit night during the dead of last winter, I looked out my bedroom window to see about twenty of them grazing a plot of grass the size of a living room. Just that small patch among acres of other species of native prairie grass. Why that species and only that species of grass that night in the worst of winter when the threat to their survival was the greatest? What magic nutrient did this species alone contain? What does a wild animal know that we don't? I think we need this knowledge.
Food is politics. That being the case, I voted twice in 2002. The day after Election Day, in a truly dismal mood, I climbed the mountain behind my house and found a small herd of elk grazing native grasses in the morning sunlight. My respect for these creatures over the years has become great enough that on that morning I did not hesitate but went straight to my job, which was to rack a shell and drop one cow elk, my household's annual protein supply. I voted with my weapon of choice—an act not all that uncommon in this world, largely, I think, as a result of the way we grow food. I can see why it is catching on. Such a vote has a certain satisfying heft and finality about it. My particular bit of violence, though, is more satisfying, I think, than the rest of the globe's ordinary political mayhem. I used a rifle to opt out of an insane system. I killed, but then so did you when you bought that package of burger, even when you bought that package of tofu burger. I killed, then the rest of those elk went on, as did the grasses, the birds, the trees, the coyotes, mountain lions, and bugs, the fundamental productivity of an intact natural system, all of it went on.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Prayers
I don't think there are any prayers as fervent as those of a parent for their child.
Harrison woke up and climbed up on the bathroom sink to throw up. Most of it looked like old blood, with some new blood mixed in. Dallas is taking him to the emergency room right now. I'm alternating between trying not to think and worry since I have no idea what is going on, and thinking and worrying and praying for my little boy.
I'm sure he'll be okay... but... My heart is aching.
Harrison woke up and climbed up on the bathroom sink to throw up. Most of it looked like old blood, with some new blood mixed in. Dallas is taking him to the emergency room right now. I'm alternating between trying not to think and worry since I have no idea what is going on, and thinking and worrying and praying for my little boy.
I'm sure he'll be okay... but... My heart is aching.
Ah, the joys of sickness
Poor D got sick on Friday night, and has been pretty sick the whole three day weekend. Then yesterday poor little Izzy got it. Dallas was able to go in to the doctor today and found out it's strep throat. Which means that is probably what Izzy has too. D took him to Urgent care as the base hospital was apparently too busy to see him.
D keeps saying he's just doesn't understand why I didn't complain more and why I didn't go to the doctor. I did complain some, but when it was at it's worst, the only thing I wanted to do was sleep, which is exactly what I did as soon as he came home from work. That didn't give me a lot of time for complaining.
Partly, I don't like going to the doctor because I always feel like the worst part is behind me and I'm getting better now, so why bother. But really, I just HATE going to the doctor. I hate taking the kids to the doctor. I don't know where this aversion comes from, but it is strong.
In hind-sight however, I'm figuring it would have been better for my family if I had, indeed, gone to the doctor. Then I could have gotten on anti-biotics and saved D and Izzy from getting sick. I'm just hoping we get it handled before the other three get sick. My poor L-bug is stuffy and congested, but I don't think she's got strep (yet) and Autie and A-bug seem fine so far.
So I guess there is more to that whole, "Take care of yourself" idea than just making me feel good. It's to make sure my family doesn't get sick too. Let's see if I can remember that next time.
D keeps saying he's just doesn't understand why I didn't complain more and why I didn't go to the doctor. I did complain some, but when it was at it's worst, the only thing I wanted to do was sleep, which is exactly what I did as soon as he came home from work. That didn't give me a lot of time for complaining.
Partly, I don't like going to the doctor because I always feel like the worst part is behind me and I'm getting better now, so why bother. But really, I just HATE going to the doctor. I hate taking the kids to the doctor. I don't know where this aversion comes from, but it is strong.
In hind-sight however, I'm figuring it would have been better for my family if I had, indeed, gone to the doctor. Then I could have gotten on anti-biotics and saved D and Izzy from getting sick. I'm just hoping we get it handled before the other three get sick. My poor L-bug is stuffy and congested, but I don't think she's got strep (yet) and Autie and A-bug seem fine so far.
So I guess there is more to that whole, "Take care of yourself" idea than just making me feel good. It's to make sure my family doesn't get sick too. Let's see if I can remember that next time.
Monday, January 17, 2011
6 month update
So there are those among you that actually expect me to UPDATE my blog??!! What? Really? Just cause it's ben 6 months since I wrote something? Okay...
So life has been rather interesting for the last bit.
The girls were born in June and the first part of August, D left for Afghanistan. Luckily I had so much help from the ward and Heather was here too. Not to mention the couple VERY good friends I've made here in Tucson, Lauren and Courtney.
If you want a day to day account of the life in The Allen home for the 3 months D was gone, there's a blog for that. If you want the overview, let's just say, it was an experience.
In October, we decided to be crazy and took all four kids, Heather and me on a trip from Tucson to Provo, UT. We were able to stay with my wonderful brother and drove him crazy for a little over 2 weeks. We went up for two sealings in the Bountiful temple there in Utah. Mike and Mariah Smith got sealed on the 14th and Pama and Derek Alder were sealed on the 29th. The trip went better than I thought it would be, mostly because we ended up driving the long distances at night, so the kids could sleep. Though we did all get pretty sick, Uncle Ammon gave us all blessings, which was a cool experience.
The biggest project I tried to get accomplished was the backyard. I wanted to get it finished before D got home as his Birthday/Christmas/Going Away/Homecoming present. While I didn't get it completed, I got a LOT done on it. I planted several trees, put in edging stones and tree rings and block around the new garden area. Then, with a LOT of help, we got gravel delivered and hauled by the wheel barrow full to the back yard. Thanks go out to the Nichols, the Ards, the Rosenbaums, the Scouts of the Valencia ward and mostly to my fabulous Dad! It was 13 TONS of gravel! Whew!
The week of Thanksgiving, Heather decided it was time to move out. She moved out on Monday, and moved in with a couple friends. I think she is an amazing person and am so grateful for the help she was to me when I needed it. I don't know how I could have handled this pregnancy and the early months with the twins without her. She has recently become engaged and I wish her peace.
D came home a couple days before we had been expecting him, which was wonderful. We were able to spend a little time together before we started traveling for the holidays.
We were able to visit all the grandparents for Christmas this year. We decided to drive at night as that had worked so well on the trip to Utah. So we left in the afternoon on Sunday and drove to El Paso and visited with Auntie Marcia and Uncle Steve for a little bit, then drove over night to my parents house. They watched the kids while we attempted to sleep that day, then we drove on again the following night.
We went to Arkansas first a spent time with Tom and Dorothy. We got to spend Christmas at Rachelle and Bills house, with Donna and her kids, Brent, Alex and Evan. For our Anniversary, D and I spent the day in Eureka Springs, which is where he proposed to me (Awe!!)
After that, we headed to Paula's house in Texas. We got to spend some time on "the property" in Memaw's 5th wheel, where they're building a house for Memaw. We also got to see Miss Teri, Uncle Tom, Auntie Laura, Auntie Lori, Uncle Andres, and the cousins, Julian, Marcelino and baby Kiev. We got to spend a couple days there and had a second Christmas on New Year's day.
A couple days later, we drove the couple hours to my parents house and had a third small Christmas and some play time with Pat and George. We even got to eat some freshly caught fish the first day we got there, caught, cleaned, and cooked all by Dad.
On the way back, because we were starting to get sick, we decided to spare Marica our germs and drive straight through. On a whim, D decided to head up to Taos, NM to see the earthship community up there. (check it out here) I was amazed to see one in "action". After a couple hours in Taos, we headed the rest of the way home.
And it is GOOD to be home!
At 6 months, AR has decided that crawling is okay, but she prefers walking. So rather than perfect her crawling skills, she has started pulling up on EVERYTHING and is most content when standing. LS is doing a great break-dance move to get where she wants to go and so doesn't feel the need for that whole crawling thing either. They are both happy babies which is such a blessing.
HT is so spunky and so smart all at the same time. He can get into so much trouble in so little time and then just smiles. But, oh, what a smile. There's a little hint of trouble in each one of his smiles, which just seems to make them that much more endearing. He has learned to count and is working on potty training.
AC is such a sweet little man. He is a great help with his sisters and loves to help with anything. He's decided he wants to start reading and writing and will ask me over and over how to spell this and that through out the day. I plan to start working more on his home schooling and want to be a bit more organized in it.
We recently turned off the internet at home so the kids would spend less time on the computer and we can have the time to spend on home schooling. I'm planning to start that this month and get a little more scheduled and a bit more structured in our lives.
So that's kind of an update on the last 6 months. Hopefully, I'll find time more frequently than that to update this. Though I make no promises!
So life has been rather interesting for the last bit.
The girls were born in June and the first part of August, D left for Afghanistan. Luckily I had so much help from the ward and Heather was here too. Not to mention the couple VERY good friends I've made here in Tucson, Lauren and Courtney.
If you want a day to day account of the life in The Allen home for the 3 months D was gone, there's a blog for that. If you want the overview, let's just say, it was an experience.
In October, we decided to be crazy and took all four kids, Heather and me on a trip from Tucson to Provo, UT. We were able to stay with my wonderful brother and drove him crazy for a little over 2 weeks. We went up for two sealings in the Bountiful temple there in Utah. Mike and Mariah Smith got sealed on the 14th and Pama and Derek Alder were sealed on the 29th. The trip went better than I thought it would be, mostly because we ended up driving the long distances at night, so the kids could sleep. Though we did all get pretty sick, Uncle Ammon gave us all blessings, which was a cool experience.
The biggest project I tried to get accomplished was the backyard. I wanted to get it finished before D got home as his Birthday/Christmas/Going Away/Homecoming present. While I didn't get it completed, I got a LOT done on it. I planted several trees, put in edging stones and tree rings and block around the new garden area. Then, with a LOT of help, we got gravel delivered and hauled by the wheel barrow full to the back yard. Thanks go out to the Nichols, the Ards, the Rosenbaums, the Scouts of the Valencia ward and mostly to my fabulous Dad! It was 13 TONS of gravel! Whew!
The week of Thanksgiving, Heather decided it was time to move out. She moved out on Monday, and moved in with a couple friends. I think she is an amazing person and am so grateful for the help she was to me when I needed it. I don't know how I could have handled this pregnancy and the early months with the twins without her. She has recently become engaged and I wish her peace.
D came home a couple days before we had been expecting him, which was wonderful. We were able to spend a little time together before we started traveling for the holidays.
We were able to visit all the grandparents for Christmas this year. We decided to drive at night as that had worked so well on the trip to Utah. So we left in the afternoon on Sunday and drove to El Paso and visited with Auntie Marcia and Uncle Steve for a little bit, then drove over night to my parents house. They watched the kids while we attempted to sleep that day, then we drove on again the following night.
We went to Arkansas first a spent time with Tom and Dorothy. We got to spend Christmas at Rachelle and Bills house, with Donna and her kids, Brent, Alex and Evan. For our Anniversary, D and I spent the day in Eureka Springs, which is where he proposed to me (Awe!!)
After that, we headed to Paula's house in Texas. We got to spend some time on "the property" in Memaw's 5th wheel, where they're building a house for Memaw. We also got to see Miss Teri, Uncle Tom, Auntie Laura, Auntie Lori, Uncle Andres, and the cousins, Julian, Marcelino and baby Kiev. We got to spend a couple days there and had a second Christmas on New Year's day.
A couple days later, we drove the couple hours to my parents house and had a third small Christmas and some play time with Pat and George. We even got to eat some freshly caught fish the first day we got there, caught, cleaned, and cooked all by Dad.
On the way back, because we were starting to get sick, we decided to spare Marica our germs and drive straight through. On a whim, D decided to head up to Taos, NM to see the earthship community up there. (check it out here) I was amazed to see one in "action". After a couple hours in Taos, we headed the rest of the way home.
And it is GOOD to be home!
At 6 months, AR has decided that crawling is okay, but she prefers walking. So rather than perfect her crawling skills, she has started pulling up on EVERYTHING and is most content when standing. LS is doing a great break-dance move to get where she wants to go and so doesn't feel the need for that whole crawling thing either. They are both happy babies which is such a blessing.
HT is so spunky and so smart all at the same time. He can get into so much trouble in so little time and then just smiles. But, oh, what a smile. There's a little hint of trouble in each one of his smiles, which just seems to make them that much more endearing. He has learned to count and is working on potty training.
AC is such a sweet little man. He is a great help with his sisters and loves to help with anything. He's decided he wants to start reading and writing and will ask me over and over how to spell this and that through out the day. I plan to start working more on his home schooling and want to be a bit more organized in it.
We recently turned off the internet at home so the kids would spend less time on the computer and we can have the time to spend on home schooling. I'm planning to start that this month and get a little more scheduled and a bit more structured in our lives.
So that's kind of an update on the last 6 months. Hopefully, I'll find time more frequently than that to update this. Though I make no promises!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Twins!
So I said I'd post the twins birth story, if you're not interested, just skip it, it might be a tid bit graphic.
I went in the 25th of June to be induced at 38 weeks, 5 days. I had had some minor contractions but nothing major and nothing consistent. I kept trying to decide if I should actually get induced. I really, really wanted to go into labor naturally. But the contractions I was having didn't seem to be going anywhere and I could wait and be in pain for the next week and a half and still not go into labor and be induced. At this point I was really in quite a bit of pain. Like - a LOT! So I decided to go ahead and get induced as scheduled.
I went in at 8:00 am. They checked me in and my main nurse was Laura and the doctor in charge was Doctor Miller. Dallas, Mom and my doula, Lindsay Schneider came with me. The nurses, Laura and (I think) Heather, set me up on the monitors and IV and started the pitocin drip. It started some very mild contractions as they started to increase the drip. I chatted some with everyone and listened to my Hypnobabies and dozed.
I didn't progressing as quickly as I had expected. With both of the boys, I progressed pretty quickly, a couple hours of Pitocin and I was ready to have some babies. Not as quick this time. About noon, the doctor in charge came in to talk with me. Dr. Miller said he understood that I wanted to labor naturally, without an epidural. But he also said that he understood that my main desire was to avoid a cesarean section, and my best bet for that was to get the epidural. He said that since the second baby was currently transverse rather than head down, there was a risk that she would come down breach. If that were to happen, I would need the epidural so that he could do what was nessasary to deliver the second baby. I understood what he was saying, and though I really didn't want to hear it, I knew that he was right. He also said that he wanted to break my water to increase the contractions, as it hadn't broken on its own yet. I told him I had to think about it for a little bit. He said he had to deliver triplets at 1:00 pm and was off at 5:00 pm so I needed to make up my mind soon . I talked with Dallas and Lyndsay and Mom and decided that it really was the best option. I decided to get the epidural first and then have my water broken.
The anesthesiologist came in. Since I wasn't currently in a lot of pain and my previous two epidurals had completely blocked any feeling, I spoke with him and asked that he do a lighter version. He said that was fine and went with about half the normal dose.
When the assisting doctor came in to rupture my membrane, she checked me and could feel the first babies hand by her face. This was a concern, as if I progressed rapidly, she could be in the wrong position to birth easily. The doctor said she wanted to check with Dr. Miller before doing the procedure. It ended up being several hours before Dr. Miller made it back to check on me, about 3:00 pm. By then, the first baby had moved her hand and he went ahead and broke my water.
Now we were on a bit of a time crunch, because Dr. Miller was one of the few doctors who would even attempt a breach delivery if the second baby came down butt first. With most doctors, it would be an automatic c-section. Since he was supposed to go home at 5:00 pm, that only gave me 2 hours to progress completely and be ready to deliver. This apparently wasn't enough time this time.
At five, the next doctor came on, Dr. Hood. She came in to talk to me. I asked what she would do if the second baby came down breach and she said that she would have to do a c-section. She didn't have the experience to do a breach delivery. I was really upset about this, of course.
They were having a lot of trouble monitoring the babies. At the first, it was the second baby who was hard to track, but after they broke my water, the first baby became diffuclt. Dr. Hood said she'd like to do an internal monitor so they could monitor her better. As she was getting ready for that, she checked me and I was almost completely dialated. Dr. Hood had just talked with Dr. Miller who said that he would stick around a little while longer in case I got ready to deliver. So Dr. Hood stretched me and was able to get me complete.
At this point, the epidural had never been raised and I was actually able to feel the need to push, which was pretty cool, considering I'd never had that before!
They got me ready to move to the operating room (all twins deliver in the operating room in case of an emergency c-section) and off we went down the hall. Only one person was able to go with me, so, of course, Dallas went with me. They got him all set up in the white paper outfit and hair net and everything.
Once everything was set up, Dr. Hood told me to start pushing. She had to tell me to "push down, not up" a couple times before I got what to do. (Again, I've never felt any of this before.) After a minute or two of pushing, they had me grab my legs and start pushing. I honestly didn't know that I could reach my legs, but I did. I was a little suprised at how much I felt, considering I had had the epidural. I could feel a lot, and it was rather painful and a lot of work! And a couple minutes more of pushing and Lily Spring Allen was born at 6:23 pm on June 25th. She weighed 7 pounds 1.6 ounces and was 19 inches long. I turned to Dallas and said "I CAN'T do that again! That hurt!" To which he replied something like "Of course you can." And in reality I had no choice!
This is the point the "fun" began. The second baby came down and she did indeed come down breach, which we had been hoping she wouldn't. Dr. Hood was kind enough to go and get Dr. Miller, who had been kind enough to wait over an hour and a half after he was supposed to go home, just in case this happened.
Dr. Miller came in and checked the baby. He had the anesthesiologist increase my epidural. He broke my water, which was apparently under some pressure as it splashed all over. He waited for a bit for the increased epidural to take effect, and reached in and grabbed a foot and pulled the second baby out. So Autumn Rose Allen was born doing the splits at 6:42 pm on June 25th, weighing 6 pounds, 5.8 ounces and was 19 inches long.
I can't say how grateful I am to both Dr. Hood and Dr. Miller. Dr. Hood for delivering Lily and being willing to step aside and let Dr. Miller do his "thing". And Dr. Miller for staying so much later than his shift and being willing to go out of his way to make sure I didn't have a c-section. And for having the experience and confidence to birth Autumn breach. It might not have been the birth I hoped for, but it turned out the best way it possibly could. I have two amazingly healthy babies and all three of us are doing great.
I went in the 25th of June to be induced at 38 weeks, 5 days. I had had some minor contractions but nothing major and nothing consistent. I kept trying to decide if I should actually get induced. I really, really wanted to go into labor naturally. But the contractions I was having didn't seem to be going anywhere and I could wait and be in pain for the next week and a half and still not go into labor and be induced. At this point I was really in quite a bit of pain. Like - a LOT! So I decided to go ahead and get induced as scheduled.
I went in at 8:00 am. They checked me in and my main nurse was Laura and the doctor in charge was Doctor Miller. Dallas, Mom and my doula, Lindsay Schneider came with me. The nurses, Laura and (I think) Heather, set me up on the monitors and IV and started the pitocin drip. It started some very mild contractions as they started to increase the drip. I chatted some with everyone and listened to my Hypnobabies and dozed.
I didn't progressing as quickly as I had expected. With both of the boys, I progressed pretty quickly, a couple hours of Pitocin and I was ready to have some babies. Not as quick this time. About noon, the doctor in charge came in to talk with me. Dr. Miller said he understood that I wanted to labor naturally, without an epidural. But he also said that he understood that my main desire was to avoid a cesarean section, and my best bet for that was to get the epidural. He said that since the second baby was currently transverse rather than head down, there was a risk that she would come down breach. If that were to happen, I would need the epidural so that he could do what was nessasary to deliver the second baby. I understood what he was saying, and though I really didn't want to hear it, I knew that he was right. He also said that he wanted to break my water to increase the contractions, as it hadn't broken on its own yet. I told him I had to think about it for a little bit. He said he had to deliver triplets at 1:00 pm and was off at 5:00 pm so I needed to make up my mind soon . I talked with Dallas and Lyndsay and Mom and decided that it really was the best option. I decided to get the epidural first and then have my water broken.
The anesthesiologist came in. Since I wasn't currently in a lot of pain and my previous two epidurals had completely blocked any feeling, I spoke with him and asked that he do a lighter version. He said that was fine and went with about half the normal dose.
When the assisting doctor came in to rupture my membrane, she checked me and could feel the first babies hand by her face. This was a concern, as if I progressed rapidly, she could be in the wrong position to birth easily. The doctor said she wanted to check with Dr. Miller before doing the procedure. It ended up being several hours before Dr. Miller made it back to check on me, about 3:00 pm. By then, the first baby had moved her hand and he went ahead and broke my water.
Now we were on a bit of a time crunch, because Dr. Miller was one of the few doctors who would even attempt a breach delivery if the second baby came down butt first. With most doctors, it would be an automatic c-section. Since he was supposed to go home at 5:00 pm, that only gave me 2 hours to progress completely and be ready to deliver. This apparently wasn't enough time this time.
At five, the next doctor came on, Dr. Hood. She came in to talk to me. I asked what she would do if the second baby came down breach and she said that she would have to do a c-section. She didn't have the experience to do a breach delivery. I was really upset about this, of course.
They were having a lot of trouble monitoring the babies. At the first, it was the second baby who was hard to track, but after they broke my water, the first baby became diffuclt. Dr. Hood said she'd like to do an internal monitor so they could monitor her better. As she was getting ready for that, she checked me and I was almost completely dialated. Dr. Hood had just talked with Dr. Miller who said that he would stick around a little while longer in case I got ready to deliver. So Dr. Hood stretched me and was able to get me complete.
At this point, the epidural had never been raised and I was actually able to feel the need to push, which was pretty cool, considering I'd never had that before!
They got me ready to move to the operating room (all twins deliver in the operating room in case of an emergency c-section) and off we went down the hall. Only one person was able to go with me, so, of course, Dallas went with me. They got him all set up in the white paper outfit and hair net and everything.
Once everything was set up, Dr. Hood told me to start pushing. She had to tell me to "push down, not up" a couple times before I got what to do. (Again, I've never felt any of this before.) After a minute or two of pushing, they had me grab my legs and start pushing. I honestly didn't know that I could reach my legs, but I did. I was a little suprised at how much I felt, considering I had had the epidural. I could feel a lot, and it was rather painful and a lot of work! And a couple minutes more of pushing and Lily Spring Allen was born at 6:23 pm on June 25th. She weighed 7 pounds 1.6 ounces and was 19 inches long. I turned to Dallas and said "I CAN'T do that again! That hurt!" To which he replied something like "Of course you can." And in reality I had no choice!
This is the point the "fun" began. The second baby came down and she did indeed come down breach, which we had been hoping she wouldn't. Dr. Hood was kind enough to go and get Dr. Miller, who had been kind enough to wait over an hour and a half after he was supposed to go home, just in case this happened.
Dr. Miller came in and checked the baby. He had the anesthesiologist increase my epidural. He broke my water, which was apparently under some pressure as it splashed all over. He waited for a bit for the increased epidural to take effect, and reached in and grabbed a foot and pulled the second baby out. So Autumn Rose Allen was born doing the splits at 6:42 pm on June 25th, weighing 6 pounds, 5.8 ounces and was 19 inches long.
I can't say how grateful I am to both Dr. Hood and Dr. Miller. Dr. Hood for delivering Lily and being willing to step aside and let Dr. Miller do his "thing". And Dr. Miller for staying so much later than his shift and being willing to go out of his way to make sure I didn't have a c-section. And for having the experience and confidence to birth Autumn breach. It might not have been the birth I hoped for, but it turned out the best way it possibly could. I have two amazingly healthy babies and all three of us are doing great.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Thing 1 and Thing 2
So, I have apparently been a bit remiss in updating my blog. I have a couple excusses... Twins!! Tomorrow I will try to add their birth story and the interesting developments since then. If the girls will let me.
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